阿姨

她是我妈咪的二姐，我的二姨。
自我懂事以来，她在我印象中一直都非常非常照顾我。
还记得当时我“年少无知”，犯下了错，她循循善诱地劝告我；
中学时每天到学校去载我们放学（现在才知道有人等我放学是多么的幸福）；
考试派成绩时会向父母一样问我考得怎样，直到现在还是一样；
她关心我、照顾我、疼爱我，就如我妈妈一样。

最最最深刻印象的一次是，我考上了matrik，因为得到的不是我想要的科系，搞得我万般地不情愿去那上课，但到最终决定要去时，她问我：“你真的要去吗？不想去就不要去，去私人学院读，二姨供你去读”。那一次，我们竟然抱着一起哭了。吃到这么大这是我的第一次，第二次就是华维的 Hug game 了。
最终，我还是去了。那时候，她告诉我说：“读到不开心就回来，不要勉强自己”。
好，去到那儿了，她常打电话来关心我，问我的近况，然后也塞了一大堆零用钱给我。
然后，假期到了，然后假期又结束了，她带我到巴士站搭巴士回槟城时，说不舍得我，然后又哭了。话说我妈都没有因为我要去读书了而为我哭过咯！

现在，表弟要离开家里去读是啦，她又要开始担心了。
我只是她的侄女，她都可以这么担心了，更何况是她自己的儿子？
儿子遇到了挫折，她彷徨无助，六神无主，不知如何是好。
我能做的，就只是给予精神上的支持，希望大家都好。

想起了我之前的一个status：
原理上：要出去闯闯，才知道家，是多么的温暖。
理性上：家，太温暖了，要出去闯闯，才会成长。
事实上：我只想呆在温暖的家，不去闯，不成长。

家，因为有了她，更温暖了。
谢谢你，阿姨。

Here I am

Ya, I am here in USM again!

I am back as a third year student now, but I still deeply believe that I am young, WE ARE YOUNG!!!

21 years old, Hmmmmmmm, it's time to seek for a boyfriend, Ha. Ha. Ha.

Oh I still can't get used to the life here after hibernating at home for 2 months and half.

I still want my healthy life style at home: sleep for 12 hours per day, have a jog during evening, have yummy dishes for dinner cooked by granny, AND last but not least--- TETRIS!!!!!!

But I couldn't ignore a fact, which is, it is nice to meet friends from USM, again! I miss 'em!!!

The only best thing for school reopen ='(

And another good thing is to meet my honey bear!!!! hahahahaha I missed it everytime when I slept!

I bought this from Voir, it costs RM23.60 after 10% discount, that's very clear that it is a pair of penguin, right? BUT my one of my friends said it is a bird, and another said it is a SHEEP! OH MY GOODNESS! 

Outfit for the day: A whole blue colour casual dress from Padini under the brand of P & Co, it only costs me RM19! There are a few more colours such as peach, green, black and white.

Okay, there is a big dilemma here, to go home OR not to go home for Convo week. BIG HEAD lu!

Tonight

So far, yet so close.
So close, yet so far.

I know what I'm thinking.
I understand, very very well.
But I won't admit it,
not to anyone,
even to myself.

How far can I go?

说到未来，你的脑海会浮现什么画面？

以前听人家说，要知道自己喜不喜欢一个人，就想想自己在想到未来时，喜欢的人有没有出现在你的“未来”里，有即喜欢，没有既不喜欢。
因为这意味着你有多在乎那人会不会陪你一起走未来的路，也表示了你的未来计划里有没有那人的存在。

现在我的"未来"里，没有什么人，有的，是朦胧一片，不知所措的自己。
前方的路，还不知道怎样走下去，有人相伴？单枪匹马？大红大紫？一事无成？
毫无头绪。

其实，悄悄告诉你，最怕的是 —— 一个人，一事无成，一无是处。
即三十岁时还没找到至爱，沦落为香港人所说的“剩女”，加上工作不稳定不顺利。
人生最痛啊！

回头想想，担心这么多有什么用啊？
人家都说世界末日要来了，甚至我会想说世界末日了更好，一切就这样没有了断的结束，不用担心、不用烦！———— 一时的消极。

好运来来来！

吃到这么大，我没去过 interview 咯！失败hor?
去过两次不正式的 interview，假期工的。
正式的 interview？从来没有去过。

刚刚发出了我下下个学期的 internship e-mail，老天啊，祝我好运吧！
希望一切顺顺利利！
其实每次去拜拜都会祈求一切顺顺利利，law of attraction，帮帮我吧！

想念着 usm 的朋友在们，大家可安好？

假期还剩3星期，好好过吧！

Whatever that comes to my mind.

It was a sleepless night yesterday.
I couldn't sleep well.
I dreamed of cows. LOL Three cows, sitting there, and one of them came to me when I walked pass it, then I was awake, sat on my bed, shockingly.
What is the meaning of this dream? COWS????!!!! Funny!

I can't fulfilled my wish during this holidays. I just stay at home n didn't go anywhere except Kuantan trip.
However, I saw LEE HOM!!!
It was a fascinating concert! I Love The Feeling Famine 30 Countdown Concert Had Given to Me!
Too much senses of touch, too much inspirations, too much glad of being ME, who is the lucky one which stay away from hunger, living happily in this world.
My first time ever to join a concert, around 18,000 people in Stadium Malawati, WORTH is not enough to express my feeling for it!
I enjoyed myself very much there, with Jerxian, Engyee, EeMay, Zling n also LeeHuey.
However, I got a bad news. The donation from  USM DIY Camp was being robbed!
Why the hell the non-hearted people robbed the donation? It should be belonged to the children, NOT FOR YOU!!! But what to do? Sigh.
There is RM2.35 million collected from this year Famine 30 all over Malaysia! RM2.35 million. Quite a big amount huh!

Apart from that, the night after Famine 30 Countdown Concert, there was a great badminton match betweem Dato Lee Chong Wei and Lin Dan.
I couldn't watch, because of the most efficient and effective train in Malaysia- KTM, we had been stucked at the Bangi station for an hour, it made me late for home for the match, shit KTM!
I could only update the score from Engyee's phone, and after her phone ran out of battery, I could only call my cousin and lastly I heard that Dato Lee can only won the silver medal.
However, I'm very proud of him, because of him, I'm proud to be a Malaysian!
Congratulation! "Skills win you medals, attitude wins you hearts!", a great quote from the commentator of ESPN.

Well, how did I spent my holidays at home?
I read a few novels, Beautiful Malice, The Lucky One, The Secret, Twilight, Breaking Dawn.
Too free!
And I went for 2 movies, Step Up Revolution and Total Recall.
I don't have the chance to catch up Ice Age 4, The Dark Knight Rises and also Spiderman.
Other than that, I watched dramas, 回到三国、护花为情、小资女孩向前冲、仁显王后的男人.
Movies, dramas, novels, the only three things in my holidays.
Time wasted easily, and my happy holidays left only 27 precious days.